My video developments have become this sort of ongoing process from when I first started and accepted the fact of having a sleep condition (17/09/15). I’ve rounded up the more significant processes over my journey which demonstrate not only how much my techniques have built but how much and how many different experiences I’ve had over this duration of time.
Looking back the first felt a lot more amateur. There were some interesting distorting and slowly emerging layering techniques but you can see there was still a lot more which could be done with it.
When I got to the point of formative, I considered recordings which recorded myself imitating what I could remember moments after awakening and before this recorded myself sleeping on a few various occasions.
I felt by doing this I could put to the test, if I actually do move or doing anything at all – How much is in my head? And then actually reenact what I can remember from the sleep paralysis. This way it doesn’t feel as artificial and I don’t get into the habit of having to make parts up which I’m struggling to remember.
One of my favourite parts at the point was the broken, pixelated part with the mask. If gives an unexpected, shock factor. It reminds me of the on edge feeling I got when watching the film ‘The Strangers’ – In this film, a group of masked individuals, tormented a couple until they eventually killed them. I mean I don’t want anyone dying here but it’s that on edge, intense atmosphere which inspired and what I relate to with my experiences.
I’ve finally got to a point now of refining and selecting which parts of my ongoing videos need to be longer or shorter than others. I’ve added blurred close-ups which demonstrate weird, uncomfortable noises of myself and Jodie. Jodie is referenced in my work due to the large impact-ful stage of my condition where it became very sexualised. I think this had a big thing to do with how much close time I spent with her during that period. Jodie is a very touchy, needy person and I’m quite the opposite so maybe this came out confusingly internally. The heavy breathing and odd noises represent the noises I thought I was making when struggling to awake at this period especially.
Now that I’m so used of the experiences, even when really vile, I try to just accept and wait for them to pass but the moment something new emerges it’s like another mind fuck.
Mixing collaged layers with singular images works well I think. You are getting an enticing experience which is then conflicted by the intensity of what the visuals are actually displaying.
I just love the idea that people are getting a feeling from my experiences and different people are reading it in different ways just as I do the more my experiences change, enhance and begin to stop.